Sleeping to Dream : Momentary Setbacks

Losing myself again... Having a nervous breakdown.. Be back soon...

Momentary Setbacks

I caught site of this unbelievable t-shirt.. It said.. "New York Fucking City" on the front of it.. To think that last year this time I was trying to get over having lost my place in Florida, getting dumped in the worst way possible (will not speak of how bad of a dump it was)and oh yeah! Being fired from a job that seemed to controlled every other application that I filled out afterwards.. I ended up packing my things into a storage unit in Delray Beach, Leaving my car with my best friend in Boca Raton and running back home.. I lost myself around this time..

I did not know what was to come of me once I stepped back onto NYC Soil.. I came back feeling like the biggest failure ever lived.. Curling up in the corners of my mothers house and hoping everyone would just pass me by.. As if life would have been better without me around..

Life has a way of rippling along.. Sometimes you catch the wave and sometimes it swallows you whole.. This was one of the times where it swallowed me.. My life wasn't the best, and it surely felt like the worst. I felt like I was looking through someone else's eyes.. Reliving what this person went through.. It didn't feel like my life. It didn't feel real..

Life is much like a book .... With a soundtrack to it.. Each month becomes a chapter and each song compliments the feelings of whatever's being written.. It took a while for me to come back to the world of the living... I wasn't sure I wanted to. Life's Momentary Setbacks can take you on a journey that can either make you find our lose yourself. I chose to find and listen to myself.. Though we are not in total control of our lives, we are certain that we will have those times where life just seems unbearable and empty. Life will always have those Momentary Setbacks. Hopefully most of us who go through the changes will dust themselves off and try again..

The Wanderer is Coming!!!

I can listen to him all day.. He has one of those voices that makes me literally want to slap your mama..

I for one will be seeing him later today... I am so amped... Holy fuck beans... I can't wait to see Marc... He's a great performer..

Shaun of the dead ROCKED!!!!!!

So saturday, my best friend and I went to see "Shaun Of the Dead"... It's even funnier on the Big Screen.. I had to support this movie because even though I already have it... I've just been itching for it to be released in the U.S for almost a year now... Thank god they did.. I haven't laughed like that since seeing, Jackass.. Or was it half baked? Huh!!!! Fucking brain cells no longer work..


So, i've been singing this all the way home...

White lines:

(White lines) Vision dreams of passion (blowing through my mind) and all the while I think of you
(High fry) A very strange reaction (burns to unwind) the more I see the more I do
Something of phenomenon turn your back to come along cause white lines blow away
Blow, rock, blow
Ticket to ride the white line highway tell all your friends hey go my way
Pay your toll sell your soul pound for pound it costs more than gold
The longer you stay the more you pay my white lines go a long way
Either up your nose or through your veins with nothing to gain except killing your brain

Free (say rock come on ya'all) rock (say freeze come on)
Free (say rock come on ya'all) rock (say freeze come on)
Free (say rock come on ya'all) rock (say freeze come on)
Free (say rock come on ya'all) rock
Ah (higher baby), ah (get higher baby), ah (get higher baby) Ah (and don't never come down) freebase
White lines (pure as the driven snow) connected to my mind
(And now I'm having fun baby) high fry (it's getting kinda low)
Cause it makes you feel so nice (I need some one on one baby)
Don't let it blow your mind away (baby) go on to your little hideaway
Cause white lines (what do white lines do) blow away
Blow, rock, blow
A million magic crystals painted pure and white
A multi-million dollars almost overnight
Twice as sweet a sugar twice as pure as salt and if you get hooked baby
It's nobody elses fault so don't do it

So fresh so clean!!!!

Like outkast once sang "Aint nobody dope as me,I'm just so fresh so clean. Don't you think i'm so sexy, I'm just so fresh so clean"

I was jamming to Mr. Gavin Degraw in the shower and when "chemical party" came on, I attempted to do the running man.. Yep! it's old school style for me in the shower.. Well it didn't go too well. I ended up hitting my head on the side of the shower.. Oy! There is something about a girl doing the running man in the shower.. We have things that moves about.. They are called BOOBIES!!!.. I could have sworn one popped me in the face...

Gavin and Showers mix... I come out feeling so fresh and so clean. Like his engaging smile, a shower brightens up your day.. When I listen to Mr. Mraz, I feel cool and calm.. He's got the remedy people.

This goes out to all the ladies... Think about Jake Gyllenhaal ... Actually just think of that scene from "The Good Girl". You know, the scene with him and Jen... But then that would be a different shower..

I'm not Frasier dammit.. I'm not listening!!!

The one sided conversation..

Hmmm.. Let's see.. Most of us just wants to be heard, especially when we're in some kind of dilemma.. Like for example.. The whole relationship deal. We may have that one friend (or a few) that we confide in. Some of us just feel compelled to well; bitch.. "Why did he/she brake up with me?". Chances are you know why he/she dumped you. It's just that you're in denial. When people like me sit there day after day as if we have the ears that needs to be gabbed in, it get's kinda irritating after a while... Have you ever noticed that when you talk to a friend about the same thing over and over they can most of the time finish what you are saying? That's because it gets OLD!! It's not that they KNOW you all too well.. They don't care after a while.. It becomes a burden, like that wound that seems to never EVER heal, as if the invisible gun is not shooting you; Just stabbing you over and over again..

You want to say.. "Just shut up about it already. Every time we talk it's the same fucking thing.. My ears hurt and you're mouth should be on permanent restriction"..

Now i'm not cold or anything like that.. I feel privileged to be confided in, but gawd damn man.. Does it have to be every fucking time? Why can't we just check out the fine men that new york city has to offer? No, yet again my ears is being chewed off and assualted (& dammit not in a sexual way) because you feel COMPELLED to tell me your life story every time we hang.. I find it hard to talk about my feelings or what i'm going through. Why? because I don't feel the need to constantly have the world revolve around me. Besides, I like keeping my shit to myself. I can look at anyone and know that they have issues.. That's easy, everyone has issues.. It's just that most of us feel quite healthy not talking about our issues every twenty minutes..

Believe me when I say.. WE ALL FEEL YOUR PAIN.. So the next time you feel like bringing up the same issues as last week or lastnight... Just don't.. You never know.. The ear you've assualted (& dammit not in a sexual way) might just lash out at you..

"F"ing Cyber Junkies

What's the deal with the guys and girls wanting to cyber? Come on people, Life isn't that hard... You don't need that shit.. What are you really getting out of it.. Watch some porn. You won't have to type or talk to the person. Stroke your meat or for the girls, rub the clit until you explode.. What's all this talk dirty to me shit? Ok, I'll talk dirty... Hmmm, what can I say when someone just pops up on me? Errrr!!! Think of something dirty to say... I GOT IT!!!! "clean your room" or "wash your smelly ass".. Is that dirty enough for you? Was that what you had in mind?.. I certainly don't think so.. Do some of these people even stop to think that maybe they are actually talking to a family member or an innocent child? It's sick but true. Some of these people don't even care.. What's the point of typing while stroking anyway? Do they like the feeling of their hands cramping or what?!

The conversation starts out nice enough with the whole "HI", age, sex, Location.. I usually reply with.. "Why"? Not because I'm a snob, but because I am trying to figure out how the fuck they found me to begin with.. I mean how many people is online around the time I'm on? What keyword do they put in to come across me? I have the filter on to prevent asses like this to ever speak to me, but sometimes you never know. You can actually make friends 12% of the time. 88% of the time it's mostly guys and girls wanting to cyber.. "WOW", I think to myself. "I must be special".. When one girl wanted to cyber me I replied."I'M a FUCKING WOMAN!".. She just replied "SO WHAT!".. What is it with these people? "Tell me you breast size".. Why? You really wouldn't know if I was telling the truth unless you knew me.

A couple of years ago, I sat next to my friend while she "cybered".. She was just laughing her ass off at this guy... Who knows, maybe the guy was doing the same.. He asked: "What are you wearing baby?".. She replied, "I have Nothing on, I just came out of the shower".. So I'm looking at her like... Bitch, you have on jeans, a t-shirt and you have a mask on your face.. He says,"Touch it for me baby" . She says " Oh I'm touching it for you baby, it feels so good".. At this point I'm on the floor laughing my ass off.. She's saying all this shit but In actuality she's just sitting there smoking her cigarette as if nothings happening?

What is it? Is your life so sad that you have been reduced to having fake sex on the "Instant Messenger" Superhighway? Look, just download some porn or if you actually have money, Just buy some ass and like Larry the Cable Guy always says "Git-'R-Done!"

Hey,If you're missing your guy/girl and you just can't seem to get off without hearing or seeing them, then give them a call.. Phone sex between lovers are good. It's the idiots who pay to speak to these ladies that can't get even laid themselves that makes me choke back the vomit. Listen, there are plenty of abled bodies out there.. Some are in bars for damn sure, most are at concerts and you can definitely find some freaky ones at the library...

So before you turn that keystroke into a masturbation fascination.. Go get some real ass or dick... It's feels a lot better.. Trust me..

Say fuck you to Cyber hoes...

Crushes are healthy right?

Before I get started I would like to say......

Damned to the ones whos lives bring them all good fortune...

Now let's begin, shall we?

I have this list of all time crushes.. I don't think I would allow myself to take anything further if I had the opportunity, but I do believe that crushes are healthy. Aaaand It help CD sales!!!!


Dave Matthews (He's Dave Duh!)
Jason Mraz (Isn't it obvious? Sleeping to dream Hottie!)
Ben Harper(Sing to me Hottie)
Tom Chaplin from Keane(British baby face singer Hottie )
Marc Broussard (Because he's sexy funk jazzy hawt)
Common(The Light Hottie)
Jake Gyllenhaal ( Three words "THE GOOD GIRL".Puppy dog eyes Hottie)
Chester Bennington(Baby Daddy Hottie)
Gavin Degraw ( I don't actually have a crush on him.. I just feel the need to protect him, He's just so adorable.)
Tom Welling ( He's frikkin Superman for gods sake)
Gregory Smith(My heart beats faster everytime I see him)
Rob Thomas(He makes me weak in the knees)
Jesse Carmichael (Because He's jesse dammit)
John Mayer(come back to bed Hottie)
I'm sure there will be some updates later...





I am Jesse from Maroon 5


How about you? Which Maroon 5 Member are YOU?

Following Through

Fire It up dammit!!

When I drink I recall the days of High School.. The only thing I remember saying is "Fire it up dammit".. My friend Joe a-k-a Joe da Hoe would roll up a blunt the size of Texas.. I would smoke until there was no more brain cells left to affect.. I kept on telling everyone how much I loved them & that I would conquer the world someday.. Well it's been years later & the only thing I've conquered is college..

In 2000 I caught myself thinking how come I never finished anything I started. I would start out with determination & drive but nothing.. My motivation would just die within days of starting anything.. Then came 2001.. I thought to myself that I would make the trip from Minnesota to Florida.. I set out on my drive September 1st... There were times when I felt like turning back, but what would I accomplish by turning back?... I found myself on the outskirts of Chicago.. It was raining so hard that the freeway was flooded out. There were cops telling us to turn back and try to enter from another route.. But I had no idea where I was.. I started to panic, asking myself why in the hell did I pick Florida... It was a cross between two states.. California or Florida.. I chose Florida because even though I wanted to get away from my family, I didn't want to be too far away.. Plus... Florida has Miami.. Home of the cuties.. So I thought..

After finding an officer of the law, I explained to him that I was lost & that I was heading to Florida & I didn't have any clue on how to get back onto the freeway. He replied.. "I drive to Florida all the time".. Well that was a relief.. "If you follow me, I can take you to a part of the freeway that isn't flooded. Then you can take that & continue your journey".. I wanted to kiss him. He was my guardian angel in a strange stormy place..

After hours & hours of driving, I did make it to Florida. I stopped off at my aunt's house & collapsed on the bed.. It was like making love while intoxicated.. Your heart was in it but your body just couldn't move. After about 10 minutes, I managed to drag myself up & headed to the shower.. I hadn't showered in days & man did I need it.. After all those rest stops I never thought once to freshen up.. I ended up falling asleep in the shower ... Huh.. Go figure.. Those 3 days spent in Orlando was well spent doing nothing.. I realized I still haven't finished my journey. So once again I set off, further south. This time with freshly washed clothes, food & a refill of cigarettes. As I continued my journey to Boca Raton, I saw the ocean.. It was beautiful.. I almost cried.. I was actually here.. I did it.. All those times I had threatened myself to turn back.. I could have failed but I kept going.. For once I saw what happens when you Follow Through.. I was overwhelmed at the feelings I was feeling.. No one could take this away from me..

I now go on with the feeling that I can do anything I put my mind to.. I really don't think I 'd be able to conquer the world but I do think I can conquer this guitar..

It's cold as hell outside

Yesterday it was 80 something degrees out, or was it like 70? Huh!! But today it's more like 60 something out or could it be more like in the 50s? Well, all I know is that it's cold out.. Not quite cold for a jacket but good enough for a sweater.. So it will be about ten months of blistering cheeks & bubble jackets. Yes ten glorious months of breaking out the winter clothes & hollering at the cuties.. Yes another winter is coming.. Snow flakes & cuties.. Did I mention cuties?

There is something about the winter that gets my blood flowing.. Sex is on my brain constantly. I sit on the train & it's like a meat market between 125 st and chambers.. Most of them come on at 59th street & get off on west 4th... If I didn't have to visit my best friend in brooklyn, I would be high tailing my ass off the train right behind them.. Cuties.. They come in all shapes & sizes... Dark,Blondes,Redheads,brunettes.. All cuties.. Black, white, asian,hispanics,alien.. Hey, If you're hot you're hot.. I have no one keeping me down so i'm free to let my eyes & my mind wonder.. Sometimes my eyes wonder over to a guy & we strike up a conversation, there is flirting & I laugh at the funny jokes he's cracking. But what's going through my mind is how badly I just want to jump his bones.. Maybe it's the way his sweater fits & how rugged his jeans are tied in with those lovely tanned coloured Diesel Spencers he's wearing.. He's rambling on & on but all I can think about is how good he smells.. I should have asked him what it was but I didn't.. *Looser*..

I love to be in love.. Well it's more like being infatuated.. I haven't actually been in a relationship long enough to feel the "In-Love" feeling.. At this point If I see a guy with a guitar in toe, I'm going right after him.. Not because he has the guitar; it will be because I know he has some form of artistic talent.. What am I saying? I've always been captivated by a guy who does some form of art.. Music is just my weakness. Like a guitar, it's hard to resist strumming the strings every now and then.. In my case I strum the strings at every chance I get.. I would love to wake up to a guy strumming away on his guitar. While he's doing that, I'd come over to him, sit next to him & strum away on mine. Beautiful music with & without the guitar..

Florida Left me WIth good memories

With all that's been going on in Florida, storms after storms has been terrorizing the poor tourist resort. For two years of my life I've spent living it up in the sun. The sun in my face & Miami at night.. It was beautiful.. I lived on a golf course in a great community in Boca Raton.. I didn't have a great job.. The job sucked so bad that I almost lost my mind every other day.. I was about the happiest person when they fired me... Thanks in part to a manager out for revenge.. Hey if it wasn't for him firing me in the first place, I wouldn't have been happy happy happy moving back to NYC..

I remember being with friends cruising down I-95 looking for somewhere to go.. It was so surreal, to wake up in a place where the summer was an all around thing.. Needless to say, I didn't really take advantage of my being in Florida.. I because a prisoner in my mind.. I ate a lot around that time & Gained weight.. It didn't stop there.. I got into a relationship with a guys 4 years younger than I was .. It was doomed from the start he & I, we didn't compliment each other at all.. We were together for a year before our relationship came to a dramatic end. I keep thinking that maybe later down the line, Some years from now we would get back together.. But the more I see all these gorgeous guys here.. That plan became more of a faint dream. We are growing to be friends now.. He has since moved on & is now living a life with a great girl.. A week a couple of weeks ago I was so worried.. I tried calling everyone I knew in florida, Even him. When I got no answer from any of them .. I took my calls to the Internet. I must have sent out 20 something emails.. Days went by & I heard nothing.. Until.. He replied.. They had lost power for 3 days.. Within one month they were hit with storms after storms .. My friend christina lost her back porch... Not cool..

For the two years I spent in Florida, I never witnessed a hurricane. Now that I am not there, It decides to slap the shit out of that poor state.. When a friend said to me.. "maybe the storms were just waiting for you to leave". I couldn't help but laugh and say to myself.. "You know, you're right"... Maybe I left just in time.. Maybe I wouldn't have handled it as well as others.. Maybe...

So now, I'm back in the Big Apple & I'm back to my old self.. Standing out in a crowd of people who all seems to stand out in their own way..

So now I'll leave you with with a pick of my lovely backyard /Golf course

Camera Time

If you strike a pose, I'll let you see what's up my nose..





For NYC, This block sure is frikkin Quite

Everyday sayings

"I TRIED seeing your point of view......
But I couldn't get my head that far up my Ass!"


"May the fleas of a Thousand camels infest the Crotch of the person(s) who screwed up your day, and may their arms be too short to scratch!"

& this is my nephews reaction while wispering it in his ear

The Borough

In this Darken Borough
Where love never seems to embark
There was no rest for the wicked
No sunshine for lovers

I sat in this darkened room
Three chairs behind a man I once knew
Hoping for love to find me

I was never like her
Beautiful & Talented
I was never beautiful
Just pretty enough to get by

Men would fall in-love within seconds of meeting her
It took a lifetime for them to fall in-love with me

I'm going to conquor this Guitar..

I spent a good two hours practicing & learning the Guitar tonight.. My fingers are hurting because I haven't played in a couple of days.. I know that I shouldn't let a day go by without playing & to tell you the truth, I have no explanation. I do have the time.. I have this cheapo guitar. You know, the ones from ebay that you buy for like a penny.. As if I have money to buy a real one.. If I can just find someone who is willing to part with one of their's. It's just a wish.. LOL..

I dream about playing the guitar. One of my dreams is to play with Dave Matthews... His music has been with me since 1992. The other guitar playing dream is with Ben Harper.. He's just one of those greats, you know what I mean? Most of my dreams are about the guitar... It switches between other musical talents but I'll have to say that Dave Matthews would be the one that I'm aiming for... To play next to Ben Harper would be the icing on the cake. You really can't have cake without the icing.. You know!!!

So I will no longer take breaks from practicing. I want others to look at me 10 years from now with the same dream that I had. To play next to me. I guess that would also be my dream 10 years from now. I would like to be one of those greats..

Well, like I said.. My finger tips are killing me... BUT!!! I still want to play the damn guitar as I'm typing this shit... So, maybe if I don't fallout because I'm dead tired... I'll play some more..

Jason Rocked on Ellen & Shaun of the dead is pure humour!!

You & I both

So today Mraz, Jason Mraz if you want to get all technical, Rocked the house on Ellen.. I wished I could have been there to support him but it would have been quite a commute from NYC to Cali.. He did his little *Ringing* thing when playing "You & I both". He's so theatrical. His stage presence is just unbelievable. Between His & Toca's sultry voice, It's like making love slowly.. For a minute I thought I had missed the whole show. Here I was thinking it came on at 4pm.. When I turned on to ABC & saw Oprah, I was like "Holy shit dude, you just missed Ellen".. So I was feeling real low. So low that I was pouting even. How could I have missed it? Not a Jason Performance.. It turns out that Ellen comes one at 10am on NBC, Duh!!!.. I was off by hours... So I try to tell myself that I would get over it but I couldn't.. It was 4:05 & nothing was on.. I couldn't watch oprah, Jason wasn't on her show.. Why should I watch it? So I started flicking through channels. I didn't get far before I saw Ellen's face on channel 10.. Holy crap.. Someone loves me enough to show this shit again.. Now, I'm jumping all over the house like a damn fool because I got my second chance to watch it.. Josh Duhamel came out first. Did I forget how hot this guy is? Oh the Hotness of what is called Josh.. WOW..

I figured nothing more than ten minutes with Josh on the couch & then I will be able to see Jason. The commercial break was over & Ellen introduced Jason. HOTNESS!!! He sang his heart out with the help of Toca.. Oh that Toca.. I've never seen two voices compliment each other so well.. Hopefully I will be able to see more concerts with Jason being the headliner..

Oh, so for Shaun of the Dead.. What a hoot this movie is.. It's all british humour so 'some' Americans will have to watch the movie a second time to get most of the jokes.. This movie will be in American theaters on Sept. 24th. If you live in the U.K. you've already received this movie on DVD... I got a hold of this movie through some friends of mine living in the U.K. I remember earlier in the year I had seen something on Shaun of the Dead when I was looking for "Horror" Comedies.. At the time it was only being released in the U.K, so me seeing it was a long shot.. It was a surprise to me when I saw the preview for it on TV a couple of days ago. Good grief, talk about about being late.. Well it's better than not being released over here at all.. When I told my friend paddy who lives in the U.K about the movie being just now released, he laughed so hard.

He's watched it so many times & now it just sits on the shelf. He said to me "Are you going to see it?" I was like, "Hell yeah".. That's when he said that he'll give me a copy. I started to do the happy dance again. So it took me about a little over an hour to upload it from him.. I was laughing so hard that I almost went in my pants. I have to give it to this movie.. The humour mixed with this Horror is amazing.. After seeing Resident Evil, I've been scared shitless to go see another horror flick. Hey, if there is comedy to it, I'll definately see it.. So when Shaun of the dead comes to the theaters.. I will be heading to see it again.

More!!

I woke up with a headache this morning.. It must have been something I ate lastnight cause not only was the headache unbearable, but I puked.. Then my stomach worked me over later on in the day.. You know when something tastes good going down but the after taste is the just nasty? Well I'm going through that right now.. I'm so dazed at the moment. I can't even remember what I ate, just that it's a hell of a nasty ass taste.

I think i'm going to play the lazy/sick card today. What makes me feel better when I'm sick? That would be a pot full of Jason Mraz,Ben Harper,DMB,Gavin Degraw,John Mayer,Stevie Wonder & Marc Broussard. You mix them up and you get an event full of funky soul funk music.. I mean the musics so damn funky, it makes you wanna "slap yo mama". Or think about it atleast. I'm out.

I'm Telling!!!

So 9.11.04 was a great day.. No rain, the breeze was blowing & I was prancing around midtown gazing from window to window. NYC gives you so many things.. The different coultures, the city lights at night. The smell of pretzels from the corner vender.. Some of us don't realize how good we have it..

Today was one of those days where you took the time out to say thanks. Thanks for the differences, thanks for the freedom, even if we sometimes feel as though we are in restraints. NYC love.. sometime you have to look deap to find it. Other times, it's free flowing.

09/11/2004

So was the Tony Danza show any good? I wouldn't know.. We ended up standing in line out in the sun for what seemed like hours.. Come to think of it, it was 2 flipping hours.. Damn Fucktards.. So I went home and caught up on some sleep.. mmm Sleeeeeeeep..

So now I'm up.. September 11th 2004.. I feel like going to the village today and see if I can catch a glimpse of the hot guys.. I donno.. Maybe hang with the nephew.. In all honesty, I think I'll just stay home and worry about my family back in Jamaica.. ^~^.. It's hard not knowing what's going on. To think it will also hit Florida is pissing me off by the minute. I have friends and family there too.. God, when will it end? Hopefully everyone will be safe.. Hopefully I will update this with some good news throughout the day..

TGI Friday!!!!!

So I got a call from my sister a little after 1 a.m. She called to remind me about Mr. Mraz performing on Jimmy Kimmel.. Man, it was so nice to see him being interviewed.. awwe, so adorable. When Jimmy asked him how old he was, he replied, "13".. He does look a bit young. He could easily pass for 14. LOL.. That's so not right. That means... Oh never mind..

Well my sister was telling me about the new Tony Danza show that will be taping today at around 9 a.m. I'm always gamed to go anywhere.. It will be a three hour taping so I hope it's good. I'll make sure to drink loads of coffee before I head in .. I was told to wear bright colours.. Me, In bright colours? Man that's a toughie.. So I figured I'd wear this Striped Red and Pink top and some navy blue jeans.. You can't make me wear anything but jeans.. I can't see my life without them.. Jeans gives me strength in some way.. To see me out all dressed up is a rarity and a privilege.

So anyway, It's really late or extremely early in the morning.. I will be a zombie today but it shouldn't be any different from all the other days. Happy go lucky me... Woofuckinghoo!!!

Marc Broussard Represents

Marc Broussard represented on the mic lastnight on the Tonight Show. He seemed a bit nervous in the beginning but loosened up when he saw his Lovely fans cheering him on. I really wished I could have supported him but Burbank Ca, Is pretty far from me being that I live in NYC.. If you ever get the chance to listen to this kid, do it.. He will knock your socks off. I was so blown away when he performed a couple of weeks ago that I became one of those instant fans.

His voice is so powerful that it sucks you in. Not only does he have one of those blessed voices. He's also one of those people you gravitate to.. The guy is genuinely friendly.. He greets you with that Southern hospitality thing & you just can't resist him. Upon meeting him when he was doing a show with Gavin Degraw,(which was an awesome show times 100) I went up to him after his set to tell him how wonderful his voice is.. I looked at him trying to figure where the voice is coming from.. At first glance, Marc has a Jason Mraz flare, but that's about it.. I love Jason Mraz's music.. Who am I kidding?.. The guy is just all around great. However, the comparison between Jason & Marc stops at the flare. Marc's voice is more powerful in depth, I hear him & the first thing I do is grab my seat. It's like he's giving me the holy spirit with that voice. When I hear Jason's voice, I have sudden thoughts of making love on a rainy day to the most sweetest guy.

So back to meeting Marc.. I didn't have to push through little girls to get to him. It was just a couple of fans getting their Cds autographed by him.. When the last girl left, I walked over to him. The first thing I said was that I was too poor to by a CD but I was hoping if I can get a pic with him instead.. He was cool about it, letting out a laugh & saying "Sure". He gave me crap about not turning on my camera & that I wasn't prepared. We were both cracking up over my lack of being prompt.. I wished I could have stayed & chat with him some more, but that's when the girls caught sight of him & any form of conversation was pretty much out the window. Like I said.. You just gravitate to this kid. I think he'd object being called a Kid, but he is younger than me by a few years, so until he tells me to stop. Go figure.

So he's coming to NYC at the end of September. I will have to get tickets to see him perform again. He's as addictive as Gavin Degraw & Jason Mraz who I think represents everytime they grab the mic. I have way too much love for Gavin & Jason, but this isn't about him.. This is about Marc. He's new & the voice doesn't not fit the body. He's a HotfunnySexysmartflirty all around guy. Did I mention that he can sing?

Rainy Days & Sunny Thoughts

I was looking through some pics I took a while back.. I came across some of my nephew.. One in particular stood out. He was standing by the bathroom with one of those distant looks in his eyes, or could it be that he was just trying to look as GQ as possible?. We grew up together. He was born when I was 11 so you can say he's more like a little brother than a nephew.. We've always shared a bond. So much of a bond that I was the one to talk to him about sex, drugs and basically everything else. We horse shit around more than enyone else. There are certain people that makes your life easier to live. He's one of them.. I would protect him with my life if it ever came down to it.. You should see this kid smile.. You have to protect him.

It must have been in march of 2004.. A bunch of us were just shooting the breeze in the basement when his mom decided to embarrass him infront of my best friend and I. We were watching Grease when she started singing along to "You're The One I Want". She dances over to him and when she was about to grab his hand to have him dance, he turns to make a run for the steps. Oh he made a run for it alright, right into the line that was hanging close by. It knocked his ass right to the floor.. We were laughing so hard.. Here he thought that his mother was going to embarrass him when the twist was of him embarrassing himself.. There is never really a dull moment when it comes to him.

He's at the point now where he blushes when he sees a pretty girl. awe. He's one of those 'model students' that teachers dream of. He dreams of playing the drums and from the list of girls he wants to marry, he's gonna have a problem. I was never a model student myself. I hardly went to school. But I did manage to keep my ass pinned to the seat in college.. YAWN!! I can't believe he's 15. Time flies I tell ya.

Wasted Moments like these

Another day came to an end. At some point it slipped my mind that it was Labor Day. For the weekend I did nothing but count the hairs on my head. I wanted to do something but what? Here I was, the four day weekend and I couldn't think of anything to do.. I did however dress myself up and went out for drinks with my best friend abby. There is something about being single that makes you momentarily panic. Your words change from "we" to "I". Things that you once shared with the significant other becomes, "blank and I used to do this".

Oh the single life.. I haven't caught on to it still. I keep hearing that I'll have the best time of my life. I'm still waiting for it to happen. HAHAHA.. At this point in my life I am trying desperately to master the guitar so I can put the music that has been playing in my head down on paper for once. Seeing all these talented musicians perform pushes me to also put myself out there. There will only be two kinds of reactions. Either they'll receive me or they'll not. We'll see.

I just thought about it. I'm in a relationship with my Guitar. Doh!! I guess I'm not single after all.